I cannot count the number of times I have started over, not just in my training plans and jobs, but in my approach to dealing with obstacles. Life just keeps throwing twists and turns, more when you live outside the lines like I do.
Over the past 5 years I have faced life and death, I have lost loved ones, I have become a mother (twice) and most recently (and TOTALLY unexpectedly) a full time step mother. I know that life is indeed full of crazy surprises.
Lucky for me, 2013 was my year of guardian angels. It took me 37 years to learn to really let people in, to let them do things for me, to let go of control...or so I thought.
This past week I came face to face with a reality I know little to nothing about. Right now I am forced to face my biggest challenge, letting go of control and 'going with the flow'. My life has taught me to make my own flow, but now I have to respect my colleagues and the students we serve. Their needs are greater than anything most of us will ever imagine. It's time for me to stop fighting the fact that I don't feel qualified to work in a classroom where students' basic needs are met by others, and focus on what I can share. I just hope that I can figure out how to be useful to the students and awesome support staff that work so closely to take care of our students. It's been a hard week of coming face to face with being uncomfortable in a professional setting. I am so grateful that my personal life is so rich, so amazing that it helps me realize that a) I am not my job and b) I can give a lot, even when I don't know much. Welcome to my new blog! If you're a mother, teacher, athlete, food lover, traveler, disease survivor, or you just love, love, love life...join me on my journey. I welcome the honour of working with you to make our world a better place.
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